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Silmalaugude plastika – esimesed emotsioonid//Eyelid correction – first emotions

/ Eveliis / 16 Comments

Päisepildil on mul silmalaugudele ka lauvärv kantud, kas te näete midagi? Ei näe? Mina ka ei näe. Põhjus selles, et mul on rasked silmalaud. Mida aeg edasi seda rohkem on laug alla langenud ja kuna ma olen niikuinii terve elu teadnud, et ühel hetkel võtan ma selle opi ka ette, siis nüüd sai see ka tehtud. Jällegi, otseselt ei ole see mul elamist seganud ja koletisena pole ma end ka tundnud, aga siiski natuke nagu ikka häiris küll.

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Ma ise arvasin, et see samm saab teoks kunagi kui olen 50+, ma ei teagi, miks ma olin pähe võtnud, et nii kaua ootama pean. Võib olla oli üheks põhjuseks ka see, et ma kujutasin ette, et silmalaugude plastika on tunduvalt kallim. Tegelikult maksab protseduur alates 890 eurot. Koostöös Medemis Clinic´uga panime me mulle paar kuud tagasi plastika aja kirja. Novembri lõppu. Kuigi ma oleksin tahtnud kohe ja varem, aga taastumine pidi siiski aega võtma ja mul oli vaja tööasjus esinduslik välja näha. Sinised ja verevalumites silmad ei oleks ilmselt messidel kasuks tulnud. Parem lõtvunud ülalaud. Sellised.

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Kui neljapäev ja operatsiooni aeg hakkas lähemale tulema, hakkasin ma natuke ikka kartma ka. Ikkagi lasta keegi noaga oma silma(laugu)de kallale. Korraks tundus, et ma ei saagi minna, sest Idal tekkis eelmisel päeval palavik, aga kuna tal õhtul ja hommikul palavikku ei olnud, viisin ma ta halva emana  lasteaeda ja läksin ise kliinikusse, millega Medemis koostööd teeb.

Joonistasime mulle silmad pähe, st arst tegi ette jooned kui palju on vaja ära lõigata, sain ühe rahustava tableti, kohaliku tuimestuse ja polnudki muud kui algas pihta. Pean ausalt tunnistama, et protseduur oli ebamugavam kui ma oleksin arvanud. Selles mõttes, et ma loomulikult ei tundnud valu, kuid ma sain ju aru, mis toimub ja kui niit vastu põske läks, siis tekkis selline vastik tunne, et appikene, keegi õmbleb mu silmi tamiiliga kinni. Nahk oli nii hell, et ausalt see õmblusteniit tundus nii paks. Mõned korrad oli ka tunda ebamugavat pingutamist ja ma lootsin, et see saab kiiresti kiiresti läbi. Saigi. Kogu lõikus kestis ehk vaid 45 minutit. Mulle meeldis hästi arsti ja õe suhtumine. Näha oli, et nad teevad seda tihti, sest kogu protseduuri vältel rääkisid nad omavahel juttu nagu oleks kohvilauas, ei midagi isiklikku ega häirivat, pigem oli see hästi mõnus ja lõõgastav. Võib olla mõnele ei sobi, aga mulle hästi meeldis ja mõjus rahustavalt.

Parim osa operatsiooni juures? Peale lõikust viidi mind voodisse taastuma. Ma sain keset päeva 1,5 tundi magada! Peale oppi tuli Marek mulle vastu ja sõidutas koju, sest kuigi silmadel ei olnud suurt häda midagi, oli olek selline uimane ja väga ise autorooli ei oleks läinud. Väga esinduslik ma muidugi välja ka ei näinud. Päikeseprillid tulid appi! Õhtul pidin siiski veel poodi ja apteeki minema ning ausalt ma tundsin end nagu Kopli parm. Seda enam, et poest palus Marek mul endale ka ühe õlle osta. Ma olin kindel, et inimesed vaatavad mind kaastundliku pilguga, et vaene vaene joodiknaine. Mis seal ikka. Elu!

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Õhtuks tundsin ma end suhteliselt hästi. Kui välja arvata see, et ma oleksin tahtnud pesema minna, aga kaks päeva ei olnud lubatud ei sooja duši ega sauna. Muidu oli olemine täitsa okei. Silmad olid paistes ja natuke ebamugav tunne oli, aga midagi ei valutanud ega polnud ka muid muresid peale joodiknaise välimuse. Vähemalt ma arvasin, et ma näen välja nagu joodiknaine. Ma ei teadnud veel, mis mind ees ootab järgmisel päeval.

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Peale lõikust peaks võtma 4-5 päeva puhkamiseks ja mitte koormama silmi arvuti või telekaga, ühesõnaga peaks vaikselt taastuma. Kas ma kuulasin arsti sõna? Muidugi mitte. Mul OLI VAJA reedel tööle minna. Mul on küll töö, mida võib teha igalt poolt, aga vot sel reedel oli just üks oluline koosolek. Panin päikeseprillid ette ja läksin tööle. Kui te plaanite seda oppi, siis siiralt soovitan arsti sõna kuulata. Kaks tundi koosolekul ekraani vaatamist ei tule paranemisele kindlasti mitte kasuks. Isegi kui päikeseprillid on ees. Kui ma pärastlõunat koju jõudsin valutasid mu silmad ja ma nägin välja selline nagu alumisel pildil. Vot see on üks ehtne Kopli parm!

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Ma olin suure osa ülejäänud päevast diivanil pikali, jääkotid silmadel. KINDLASTI varuge koju jääkotid. Need on elupäästjad! Ilma nendeta ma ei kujuta ette KUI paistes ma oleks. Valu läks ka ära, jäi vaid selline vastik kiskuv tunne ja ühe silmaalune paistetus oli nii suur, et sellest silmast nägin ma põhimõtteliselt vaid oma põske.  Öösel läksin magama ka koos jääkottidega. Hommikuks nägin ikka välja nagu ehtne joodiknaine, AGA silmalaugude enda paistetus on hakanud taanduma, kogu paistetus on kogunenud silmade alla ja uskuge või mitte, aga ESIMEST KORDA ELUS ma näen JUBA oma silmalauge. Mul ON silmalaud. See on nii veider tunne. Ma ei jõua 29.11 kui niidid eemaldatakse, ära oodata. See on nii uskumatu!

Kas ma soovitaksin seda operatsiooni ka teistele, kel on laugudega probleeme? Hell yeah! Ma näen, et see ebamugavus ja paistetus on kõike seda väärt!  Kas te hakkate enne operatsiooni kartma? Korraks kindlasti. Kas on midagi karta? Absoluutselt mitte. Kuidas kiiremini taastuda? Kuulake arsti sõna ja puhake 4-5 päeva!

USA-sse lähen ma detsembris juba uute silmadega. COOL!

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On the header photo I have make-up on my eyelids, can you see anything? No? Me neither. The reason for this is that I have heavy eyelids. As the time gone by, the eyelids have become heavier and because I have known for a long time that one day I will be having this surgery, then it’s done now. Again, it hasn’t really disturbed my life as such and I haven’t felt like a monster, but I guess it did bother me a little bit.

Personally I was planning to have this surgery done when I’m 50+, I am not even sure why I though I needed to wait that long. Maybe one of the reasons was money, as I though it would cost a lot when in fact the prices start from 890 euros. In cooperation with Medemic Clinic, we booked me in couple of months ago to the end of November. I would have wanted to have it done sooner, but the recovery time is quite long and I had some important business meetings coming up. Having swollen black eyes wouldn’t have been the best “make-up” to wear in fairs. Better having them heavy, like this.

When the operation date was approaching, I actually got a bit scared – letting somebody cut my eyelid with a knife. For a moment it looked like I cannot go as Ida developed fever the day before, but since she was okay in the evening and next morning, as a bad mom, I took her to the nursery and went to the clinic.

We “drew eyes” on my face i.e. the doctor drew the lines how much is needed to cut, they gave me a tranquilizer and anesthetics and we were ready to start. I must admit, the procedure was more uncomfortable than I was expecting it to be in a sense that obviously I couldn’t feel the pain, but I was consious the whole time and understood what was going on. So when I felt the thread touching my cheek, it gave me this bad feeling of “oh my good, my eyes are being sewed together.” My skin was so sensitive that the thread felt especially thick. Couple of times I could also feel this tensing sensation so I was really hoping this all to be over soon.  It was. The whole procedure only took 45 minutes. I really liked the attitude both the doctor and the nurse had. You could see, that this is something they do frequently, because the whole time they were chatting like having a small coffee break. Nothing personal or disturbing, but more like relaxing. Some people might not like this, but I enjoyed it and it did calm me down. Best part of the whole procedure? After the operation I was taken to a bed to recover. I could have a 1.5 hour nap in the middle of the day. Marek came to pick me up and drove home, because eventhough my eyes were quite okay, I still felt dizzy and not eager to sit behind the wheel. Obviously I didn’t look at my best, but luckily I have sunglasses. In the evening I still needed to go to a supermarket and pharmacy and I really felt like a homeless person. It didn’t help that Marek asked me to buy a beer for him. I was sure people were looking at me and feeling sorry for this “drunk’s wife”. Oh well, this is called life!

In the evening I felt pretty good except for wanting to have a shower, but warm shower and sauna was forbidden for two days. Otherwise I was fine. My eyes were swollen and felt a bit uncomfortable, but nothing was aching nor I had other worries apart from my appearance. At that point I had no idea what was coming.

After procedure you should take 4-5 days to rest and recover, not to strain your eyes with laptop or TV, but rather take it slow. What did I do? I HAD TO go to work the next day. Though my work allows me to have home office days, I had a really important meeting scheduled. So I put my sunglasses on and went. If you are planning to have this surgery, I really advise you to listen to your doctor. Staring at a screen for two hours in a row is not good for the recovery process, even if you are wearing sunglasses. When I arrived home in the afternoon, my eyes were aching and I looked like the picture below. Now this is a proper homeless drunk!

For the majority of the day, I was lying on the couch with ice bags on my eyes. Make sure to have PLENTY of ice bags in the freezer, they will save your life. Without them I cannot imagine how swollen I would have been. Even the pain went and only this weird pulling sensation stayed and one eye was so swollen that I could only see my cheek. I went to bed with ice bags, but still looked like a drunk’s wife in the morning. However, the swallowing on the eyelids had started to go down, leaving the majority of it under the eyes and believe me or not, for the first time in my life I can already see my eyelids. I HAVE eyelids. It’s weird. I cannot wait until the threads are removed. This is so unbelievable.

Would I recommend this procedure to people who have problems with their eyelids? Of course I would. I can see that all this uncomfortable feeling and swallowing is worth it. Do you get scared before having the surgery? For a moment probably yes. Is there anything to be scared of? Absolutely not. How to recover quicker? Listen to your doctor and rest for 4-5 days.

I will be going to USA in December already with my new eyes. COOL!

 

 

 

 

Kuidas ma muutun?//I would have never though the boost my self-esteem might get, but the boost has been big

/ Eveliis / 15 Comments

Tänu Perekooli Kägudele, kes mulle kogu aeg meelde tuletasid, et ma olen nii kole inimeseloom (välimuselt eelkätt), et kui pimedas vastu tuleksin ehmatan lapsed ära ja üldse oleks minust vaid aus kott peas ringi käia, sest jumala eest, kuidas üks 37aastane naine julgeb välja näha “nagu mu vanaema” ja “50+ aastane”, viskas mul kopa ette ja ma otsustasin Medemis nahakliiniku abiga end muutma hakata.  Ma oleks seda varem juba teinud, aga mingil põhjusel oli minul (ja nagu ma aru olen nüüd saanud ka paljudel teistel) eelarvamus, et botuliinisüstid, IPL fotonoorendus ja laugude korrigeerimine maksab väikese varanduse. Tegelikult on see üllatavalt odav. Oleks pidanud eelarvamuse asemel kodulehelt hindasid vaatama. “Kurjusekortsu” ja otsmiku horisontaaljoonte botuliinisüstid maksavad kokku 349 eurot. Kui mõelda kui palju maksab üks kosmeetiku juures käimine, mille tulemus (olgem ausad on vaid korraks värskem olemine), siis ei saa seda just kuigi kalliks pidada.

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Minult on küsitud hästi palju küsimusi. Eelkätt hinna kohta, mis sai juba vastuse (teistest protseduuridest, mis mind ees ootavad ja palju maksavad, räägin siis kui kord nendeni jõuab), aga ka seda kas valus ei ole. Süst on alati ebamugav, aga valus ei ole see protseduur kindlasti mitte. Esimesed tulemused olid näha kolme päeva pärast ja alguses oli äärmiselt imelik tunne, et otsmiku liigutada ei saanud, aga sellega harjub hästi kiiresti ära.  Meil on kodus nüüd inside joke, et ma teeks imestunud nägu, aga ma ei saa. Kurjuse korts on veel näha, aga see hakkab ka vaikselt ära kaduma, nii et varsti ei saa ma ka kurja nägu teha.

Mult on küsitud, et kas ma ei karda, et olen oma organismi lasknud panna midagi, mis sinna ei kuulu, et kas ma ei karda, et sellel võivad olla mingid tagajärjed. Ma ütlen ausalt, et ma usun, et need kogused on mikroskoopilised ja pealegi kui lugeda uudiseid siis üle päeva muutub midagi tervisele kahjulikuks. Ma ei oska karta. Praekartul pidavat ka vähki tekitama.

Üks natuke naljakas küsimus oli, et kas ma ei kartnud nahakliinikusse minna, et seal töötavad kindlasti beibed, kes kõikidesse, kes imekaunid ei ole, suhtuvad üleolekuga. Suhtumine selles nahakliinikus oma klientidesse on käsi südamel nii meeldiv, et juba selle pärast tasub sinna minna. Toredad, sõbralikud ja äärmiselt professionaalsed inimesed. Ma isegi ei tea, kust inimestel selline naljakas eelarvamus tulla võis.

Minult on küsitud ka, et miks ma midagi ei teinud oma siniste silmaaluste ja suu ümbruse vagudega. Teate, sellega on selline veider lugu, et mu välimuses on otseselt häirinud mind vaid mu rasked silmalaud ja hambad, ma ei ole end otseselt vana ja koledana tundnud, päriselt. Kosmeetikud ja juuksurid on mind vajadusel suutnud piisavalt üles tuunida ja argipäevadel…noh argipäevadel ei pannud ma ise tähele kui kole ma olin. Random fakt: ma ei kasuta igapäevaselt juba aastaid jumestus- ja peitekreeme, kuigi nende abil saaksin ma end ka igapäevaselt kõiksugu kägudele välimuselt vastuvõetavamaks muuta. Mulle meeldib argipäeviti suhteliselt loomulik olla, nii säilib ka mingi põnevus kui on vaja mõne ürituse jaoks end üles lüüa. Mis mulle Medemises ka meeldis oli see, et nad küsisid, mis mind ennast kõige rohkem häirib ja ei hakanud midagi juurde soovitama, mida jällegi paljud on eeldanud, et igal pool raha teenimise eesmärgil tehakse. “Me teeme täpselt nii palju kui klient soovib, ” oli nende kindel seisukoht, “kui hiljem klient leiab, et tahab midagi veel korrigeerida, siis alati saab kõike juurde teha, kuid esimese asjana on meie mõte välimus hoida võimalikult loomulik.” Mulle meeldis nende suhtumine. Ja seepärast ei ole ka mu otsmik sama sile kui 15aastasel, vaid see on loomulikult sile. Kortsud on näha, aga mitte vagudena.

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Kuigi nagu ma ütlesin, ei ole mu välimus mind ennast otseselt seganud, ma olen alati olnud enesekindel ja välimus pole kunagi mind milleski takistanud, aga jaa, kui te küsite, kuidas ma ennast nüüd peale esimest protseduuri tunnen, siis muidugi ütlen ma, et ma tunnen end paremini ja veelgi enesekindlamana. Ma ei oleks uskunud, et see nii palju enesehinnangut tõstab, aga tõstab.

Loomulikult on minult ka küsitud, et aga mis siis saab kui mõju ära kaob. Kas ma siis jäängi ennast nüüd süstima. Vaadake enne ja pärast pilte! Need vist räägivad enda eest. Muidugi jään ma edaspidigi neid süste tegema. Aga kas ma sõltuvust ei karda? Nooh, ega kunagi ei saa 100% kindlusega ju öelda, et ma mingi hetk peast lolliks ei lähe, samas ma ise arvan, et ma olen üsna adekvaatse reaalsustajuga inimene. Pealegi kui rääkida moes olevatest suurtest tagumikest ja suurtest huultest, siis need mõlemad on mul looduse poolt piisavalt lopsakad, et end juba loomulikult moodsana tunda.

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After the constant negative comments at me in our infamous forum Perekool, where I was constantly reminded how ugly I looked, that if you were to meet me in the dark, I would scare the children off. Or I should really be walking around with a bag around my head, because honestly, how does a 37-year old woman dare to look like “my grandmother” and “a 50+ years”. I just had enough at one point and decided to make some changes with the help of Medemis Clinic. I would have done it earlier, but for some reason I was (and now I can see a lot of people were) prejudice that botulinum injection, IPL Photo Rejuvenation and Correction of upper eyelids would cost a small fortune. Surprisingly they are fairly cheap. Instead of being prejudice, I should have just check the pricelist on their website. Getting rid of the frown and horizontal forehead lines costs only 349 euros. If you think how much it costs to get your facial done for just one time, whereas the result is as much permanent as feeling fresh for about an hour, I can’t say it is expensive.

I have been asked many questions about this topic. Mostly about the price which I already told (I will tell more about the other procedures and costs once I have received them). But also whether it is painful. Injection is always uncomfortable, but the procedure itself is not painful. I could see the results already in three days and to be fair, it felt really weird not being able to move your forehead, but you get used to it quickly. We have an inside joke now at home, where I am asked to look surprised, but I can’t. You can still see the frown lines, but these have started to disappear too, so soon I won’t be able to pull an angry face either.

I have been asked whether I am not afraid that after having put something into my body that doesn’t belong there, I might suffer from some consequence. I’m being honest here, by believing that the quantities injected into my body are just too small to have any effect in that sense. Besides, every day there is news about something becoming dangerous to your body. I am not afraid, I don’t know how. They say fried potato can cause cancer too.

There was one funny question about the people working in the clinic – wasn’t I afraid that they will all be tuned up babes, who look down to anyone who is not looking picture perfect. Trust me, that clinic is very kind towards its customers and that alone is a reason enough to visit them. Nice, friendly and very professional staff. I don’t even know, why would anyone think like that.

I have been asked why haven’t I done anything with my blue lower eyelids and corners of the mouth. Well, the funny thing is, that the only area in my face, that has ever bothered me, are my upper eyelids and my teeth. I have never really felt old and tired. If needed,  I have always been scrubbed up by professionals and on normal days … well, I didn’t realize, how ugly I was. Here is some useless information for you – I have not been using foundation for years now though, that would probably make me look much more presentable. I like to look fairly natural in my daily life so when there is an occasion, there is something to look forward to. What I also like about Medemis, is that at the very beginning they asked what was bothering myself the most and didn’t start to suggest more procedures. Contrary to yet another prejudice, when people think this is what clinic do to make more money. “We do as much as the client wishes” is their principle “and if the clients wants to do something more later, it is a possibility. But first and foremost we’d like to keep the appearance as natural as possible.” I like their attitude. And this is why my forehead is not as smooth as a 15-year old would have, but it is naturally smooth. You can see the wrinkles, but they are not as deep.

Although I have said before, that my looks have never really bothered me, I have always been self-confident and my appearance has never stopped me from doing something, I must admit, that after having the first procedure done, I do feel better and even more self-confident. I would have never though the boost my self-esteem might get, but the boost has been big.

Of course I have also been asked, what happens if the injections wear off. Do I need to receive the injections for the rest of my life? Look at the before and after pictures, they speak for themselves! Obviously I will keep receiving the injections. Aren’t I afraid to get addicted? You can never say with a 100% confidence that I will never loose my senses, but I’d like to think I am quite adequate and realistic person. If you hint at the big butts and lips that are in fashion at the minute, then I have them quite lush by nature so I am fashionable already.

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Aitäh, Perekool! Siiralt aitäh!// This is why she looks 15 years older, I really though she is 45+ and not 35

/ Eveliis / 32 Comments

Et kõik ausalt ära rääkida pean ma alustama kaugemalt. Läheme ajas tagasi nii umbes 17-18 aastat. See oli aeg kui popp oli olla pruun. Ja mitte saada pruuniks teiseks juuliks, vaid olla pruun. Kogu aeg. Päike oli mu parim sõber. Ma olin igal vabal hetkel päikse käes siruli. Päikesekaitsekreemi ei ole ma oma elus kunagi kasutanud. Tädi Helju (tark naine!) ütles mulle kogu aeg – Eveliis, ära päevita, see ei ole kasulik, nahk läheb vanaks ja kortsu. Kas ma kuulasin teda? Ei, muidugi mitte. Lisaks hakkasin ma hoopis solaariumis käima.

Umbes 18-aastaselt hakkasin ma suitsetama. Suitsetasin kuni ma rasedaks jäin. Lihtne matemaatika ütleb, see teeb 15 aastat. Ülikooli ajal olin ma kõva pidutseja. Kõik olid. Kolmapäeval, neljapäeval, laupäeval klubis. Nädalast nädalasse. Kõik käisid. Varahommikuni klubis. Natuke magada. Loengusse. Ja nii see trall kestis aastaid.

Tädi rääkis mulle, et oota kuni 35 saad, siis hakkad vananema ja nägema, mida päike ja vähene magamine teeb. Mis te arvate, mis ma talle vastasin? Pähh, suva, 35-aastaselt ma olen nii vana, et vahet enam pole, milline ma välja näen. Tunnistage ausalt, 20-aastaselt tundus teile ka, et 35-aastane on ikka jõhkralt vana.

Ootamatult sai 20-aastasest minust 37-aastane. Peegel on mul olemas ja kuigi ma enam ammu ei päevita, ei suitseta juba neli aastat, pidutsemisest ei tea ma suurt midagi, on mul nagu öeldud kodus peegel ja ma näen, et kõik see on oma jälje jätnud. Lisaks ilmselt ongi mul ka selline nahk, mis kiiremini kortsu läheb. Rasked silmalaud olen ma isapoolselt suguvõsalt pärinud. Just eile vaatasin isa pulmapilti ja kuigi ma leian, et mu isa on täiega kena mees, siis ma nägin ka oma silmalaugude tulevikku. Kortsudest ja silmalaugudest hoolimata ei ole mul enesekindlusega kunagi probleeme olnud ja nii ei ole ma end kordagi veel vanana või koledana tundnud. Muidugi olen ma mõelnud, et ühel hetkel ei välista ma ei süste ega võib olla isegi lõikusi, aga ma mõelnud selle peale veel väga. Ei lasknud end häirida. Avaliku blogijana, kelle mõnikord teravaid arvamusi loevad päevas tuhanded inimesed, kuulub minu ellu ka kriitika. Aastatega on mulle paks nahk (sõna otseses mõttes ka) selga kasvanud, suur osa asjadest läheb ühest kõrvast sisse ja teisest välja, kuid osa kriitikast paneb ikka mõtlema. Ja kui päevast päeva kuulda kommentaare oma välimuse kohta, siis see hakkab ikkagi mõjutama. Hakkadki mõtlema, et aga kui vana ma siis tegelikult teiste arvates välja näen?

Läksin ekstra õhtul Perekooli foorumisse, et mõned näited leida. Ei pidanud palju otsima, sest üks viimase aja populaarsemaid arutelusid Malluka autokooli kõrval oli just minu välimus:

  • Eks ta sellepärast on vanusest 15a vanem välja näebki, ma tõsimeeli arvasin, et tegu on 45+ inimesega, aga et 35a seda ei arvaks elus.
  • Pidev ving, irin, negativism, rahulolematus kõige ja kõigiga muudab ka inimese vanemaks.
  •  Tema on üks neist kes kohe kindlasti näeb oma east tunduvalt vanem välja. Ta ise teab seda ka ja laseb ennast enamasti päikseprillidega pildistada.
  • Ma olen sama vana, kui tema aga selline tädi küll välja ei näe.
  • Nii kaugelt näeb mu vanaema ka 35a välja
  • Karm.Mõne vastu on ikka elu väga ebaõiglane. Või on ta siis ise kõik teinud, et nii kehv välja näeb. Seda viimast ma väga ei usu, järelikult ikka totaalne ebaõnn.
  • Kaldun arvama, et Seljakoti kiire visuaalne vananemine on tulnud sellest, et ta on oma näolihased “kandnud” selliseks. Hoidnud pidevalt nägu pinges, krimpsus, mossis ja üleüldine rahulolematus – selline näolihaste hoiak ongi nüüdseks jätnud püsiva jälje näkku. Ma teeks tema asemel kodus näkku kupumassaaži või tavalist massaaži, lõdvestab lihaspinget näos.

See on vaid üks lehekülg kommentaare. Ma ei oleks kunagi uskunud, et ma ütlen  aitäh kõikidele Perekooli kägudele, sest kui te poleks mu välimust järjepidevalt kommenteerinud, ei oleks ma Medemis Clinic´u poole pöördunud. Esialgu konsultatsiooni sooviga, aga kõik läks nii kiiresti, et juba esimesel kohtumisel üleeile panime me paika, mida minu näoga teha võiks ja juba eile käisin ma esimesel protseduuril – otsmiku horisontaalkortsude ja “kurjusekortsu” botuliinisüste tegemas. Teate, mis on naljakas? Kui ma konsultatsioonile läksin, anti mulle kätte peegel ja küsiti, et mis sind siis kõige rohkem häirib. Ma pidin ausalt vastama, et tegelikult ei häirigi mind otseselt midagi, aga kuna tänapäeval on olemas kõik võimalused, et parem välja näha, siis miks kannatada kommentaare ja näha (väidetavalt) vanem välja kui 37. Kokku sai konsultatsioonil lepitud, et teeme kolm protseduuri: botuliinisüstid, korrigeerime ülalaud ja protseduuride vahele teeme ka IPL fotonoorenduse kuuri, et eemaldada pigmendilaigud ja parandada naha üldist toonust. Ajaraamiselt peaksin ma saama teile enne ja pärast pilte näidata veebruaris.

Süstide mõju peaks avalduma näha olema kahe nädala jooksul, kuid teate, ma tundsin end juba eile kuidagi uuesti sündinuna. Mul oli hea meel, et ma selle sammu ette võtsin. Marek naeris kodus, et ju mul ikka kusagil mingi silmarõõm on, et no kelle nimel ma siis nüüd pingutan, et ega ju ometi oma mehe jaoks. Osaliselt on tal õigus, et jah, esimese asjana mõtlesin ma loomulikult enda peale. Oma enesekindluse tõstmise peale. Aga võimalikest silmarõõmudest on mul ükskõik ja teine osa minust mõtles just oma mehe peale. Küllalt on neid naisi, kes keskea saabudes oma välimuse käest ära lasevad ja siis pärast krokodillipisaraid valavad, et mees teisi vaatab. Ei, minu abikaasa ei ole selline, kes vaid inimese välimust hindab, tema esimene reaktsioon oli “aga mind ei ole ju sinu kortsud kunagi häirinud?”, kuid kui silmarõõmude ja muud naljad kõrvale jätta, siis sai temagi aru, miks ma Medemisse pöördusin.

Hoidke siis nüüd pilk peal blogil kui tahate samm-sammult näha, mis edasi toimuma hakkab. Kogu teekond saab teoks tänu koostööle Medemis nahakliinikuga.

*Pealkiri on siiski kerge sarkasminoodiga öeldud. Ega see välimuse kallal tänitamine midagi tänuväärset just pole.

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To be completely honest with you, I have to go back in time, about 17-18 years. That was the time when being tanned was pop. And not being tanned only in summer time, but to be proper dark. ALL the time. The sun was my friend. I used to sunbathe whenever I could. I was never using sun lotion. Aunty Helju (a wise woman may I add) told me all the time – Eveliis, don’t sunbathe, it’s not good for you. Your skin will get old and wrinkly. Did I listen to her? No, of course not. Instead, I started to visit sun beds more often.

At the age of about 18 I started smoking and I was doing that until becoming pregnant. Simple calculation says that was 15 years all together. In uni I was also a party animal. Everyone was. Wednesday, Thursday and Saturday night was about clubing. From week to week. Everyone was. Dancing in nightclubs until early morning. You had a couple of hours nap, then rushed into lecture. And like that for years.

Aunty warned me to wait until I turn 35, when I will start getting older and see the results of what sun and lack of sleep can do. What do you think I replied to her? Heh, I don’t care, at 35 I’m so old that it doesn’t matter how I look. Be honest, even you felt at the age of 20 that 35 is seriously old.

Before I realized, 20-year old me had turned 37. I do own mirrors and though I haven’t sunbathed for a long time, have lived smoke-free life for four years, and don’t know the meaning of the word partying, like I said I have mirrors at home and I can see the outcome of all the above. Probably I also have the sort of skin that wrinkles quicker and easier. Heavy eyelids are inheritance from my dad’s side of the family. I was actually looking at his wedding picture recently and I must admit, though my dad is a gorgeous looking man, I could see the future of my eyelids. Despite the wrinkles and the heavy eyelids, I have never had problems with self-confidence and I have never felt old or ugly. Of course I have had thoughts about injections or operations, but never too deep or serious. I wasn’t bothered. Being a public blogger, whose sometimes very sharp opinions are read by thousands of people a day, criticism has become a part of my life. Over the years I have become thick skinned (literally), so majority of it all just comes and goes. But there are some sayings that make me think and if you hear comments about your looks on a daily basis, it will start to effect. And you start to think HOW old do I look then?

I extra went to internet forum to find some examples, which wasn’t really that hard as one of most popular discussion was actually about my looks:

  • This is why she looks 15 years older, I really though she is 45+ and not 35.
  • Constant whining, negativism, dissatisfaction with everything and everyone makes people look older as well.
  • She is definitely one of those, who appears older than she really is. She knows it and that’s why she is usually wearing sun glasses on photos.
  • I am the same age as her, but don’t look an oldie as she does.
  • From a distance even my grandmother looks 35.
  • Tough. Life is so un-fare to some people. Or maybe she has done everything she can to look so bad. I don’t believe the latter, so it must be total lack of luck.
  • I think that the visual quick aging of Backpack is because she “has worn” her facial muscles like that. Having her face constantly tensed up, wrinkling, sulking and general resentment – the facial muscles remember this position and have now stayed like this. If I was her, I would give my face cup massage at home. Or even normal massage would help to ease the tensions in face.

This is only one page worth of commentaries. I would have never thought this, but I sincerely have to say THANK YOU to you all in the forum. If you hadn’t constantly criticized my looks, I would never have gone to Medemis Clinic. At first I went there only to have a simple consultation. But everything moved so fast, that on the first appointment on Wednesday we came up with the plan on what to do with my face and already on Thursday I went for my first procedure – botulinum injections into forehead. You know what is funny? When I went for my consultation, they gave me a mirror with a question – what is bothering me the most? I had to be honest and say that nothing is really bothering, but as now days we have the possibility to look better, then why put up with the comments and (supposedly) look older than 37. We agreed on the consultation to do three procedures – botulinum injections, correcting eyelids and in between these two procedures also carry out IPL photorejuvenation cure to remove pigmented spots and improve the general health of my facial skin. In theory I should be able to show you before and after pictures in February.

The effect from injections should be visible in two weeks, but I felt like a new born already on the same day. I was so glad to have decided and do this. Marek was laughing at home that I must have feast for eyes somewhere, because of whom I am doing all this as obviously I am not doing this for my husband. He is right, partially, as first and foremost I was thinking about myself to raise the level of my self-confidence. And of course I was thinking about my husband. I don’t care about any feasts for eyes. There is far to many women, who stop taking care of themselves when mid-life arrives and cry later, because the partner/husband is looking at other women. No, my husband is not one of those, who only appreciates the look. His first reaction was “but I have never been bothered by your wrinkles”. In the end though, if we leave out all these jokes about feasts for eyes, then even he understood why I went to Medemis.

Keep an eye on the blog now if you want to see step-by-step what is going to happen. All this journey will be happening thanks to the co-operation with Medemis.

* The title is written with sarcastic tone in it. In the end of the day, it is not nice to hear criticism about you and your looks.